Welp, Let's go with the obvious first. I'm still here. I'm still alive. And, thankfully, I'm in a much better place than I have been for the past couple of months.
That said, I am taking my re-integration into the community slow and steady so don't expect a sudden surge in activity from me. The truth is that, while it is a relief to be able to wake up each morning feeling positive and optimistic again, I'm yet to rediscover my creative spark, or any sort of inspiration for that matter. Actually, I still find the idea of picking up where I left off somewhat fills me with dread.
With time I hope that will pass but I acknowledge that I find myself at something of a crossroads in terms of my blogging career and perhaps it's time to admit that I've had a good run of things but now is the time to move onto other things. I don't know...
Seeing so much great content being posted whilst I've been away has certainly made me feel very conscious of whether I can still create content that has sufficient merit to even get noticed alongside the sort of stuff that is out there now. And that is part of what has fuelled my uncertainty over continuing with this. To be fair, that is a moot point until I even rekindle the desire to create content.
Anyway, moving on from that, I would like to thank a few people for their patience and kindness in helping get me back on my feet. xoJessi, the one person to check up on my periodically to see how I was doing, despite me not always being deserving of her thoughts. Ember for giving me some much needed one on one time to help me reacclimate to socialising with others and providing me with a safe space to dip my toe back in. And finally, Ace for just being very understanding that his wife vanished for 2 months without any word and has been nothing but supportive since I returned.
And that seems like an appropriate segue into mentioning that Ace and I have decided to remain married. Even if I'm nothing more than a trophy wife, its nice to feel wanted in at least some regard and it has made a refreshing change to feel like I have someone to support me and who I can support in return.
I think it's probably best if I leave it there for now. So I will sign off for now by wishing you all a happy National Handjob Day and hopefully you will hear again from me soon.
