Down But Not Out

Depression sucks balls. Especially when it strikes at the most inopportune times. I has some much content planned for my month of masturbation but that all got very quickly derailed when I had a stupid meltdown that sent me spiralling all the way down to rock bottom.

It's been a rollercoaster of ups and downs since then. More downs than ups, if truth be told. Some of them triggered by shitty drama going on in my family life. Some of them because I have a broken head. And some just because I've been so fucking tired that it's been impossible to think clearly.

I thought I was making good progress after and enjoyable getaway. And even managed to show my face at the Bare Bunnies Spring Fashion show, which was an event that I'd bee looking forwards to ever since I saw its announcement trailer.

The thing is that life has a way of bitch slapping you hardest when you dare to be optimistic that things are getting better and that's exactly what happened next. 

I'm not going to claim that I'm in a good place now. I'm not even close. Any hugs that anyone wants to give me are still very much appreciated. But I am feeling like I'm finally over the hump and maybe, just maybe, I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. So I'm going to try once again to tentatively dip my toe into the water and start being more active again after my recent absence. 

Fingers crossed that it lasts longer than the 1 day I managed for the fashion show, which, although it will be somewhat belated, I will try to post something for as soon as I can muster the willpower and enthusiasm. 

Of course, it goes without saying that my Masturbation Bingo challenge got put on hold whilst I was struggling and I was never realistically going to make any further progress to it once everything hit the fan. That fucking sucks because I'd been looking forward to it for so long and I know it was popular with a lot of my social media followers who like hearing about my sexploits. I suppose there is always next year to give it another attempt.

And for what it's worth, I feel like I did manage to get a good amount of it done despite spending only half a month actually ticking things off on it. I even managed to complete a few lines on it, which is something at least.

Anyway, since we're now into June, I can official declare the challenge failed, even if the white flag effectively went up weeks ago. I did manage to tick a few more items off since I last showed off my bingo card so here's the final thing...